Today I am missing my nephew, Baby K. (Which reminds me, I have not yet posted about his baptism! Perhaps this week). How do I phrase this... Baby K's father and his family have, in my very biased opinion, a type of "hold" over my sister. This saddens me not only because there are often long periods of time without communication, but at this moment in time I have not heard from her/about her/seen her for twelve days now. (As explained here I think I only got to see him then because he was sick and my sister needed to sleep -- am so thankful they came and I could help for at least half of a day) Prior to my nephew being born I would usually be successful at different techniques that help me to let go and understand that it is her life. Now however... I find myself hurt and resentful that my parents and I are not being included... It is stressful to know that Baby K is loved and wanted yet being kept from me -- literally no communication and to not at least get a photo... I think what I really hate is that my sister pulls away, and that having the only baby (only grandchild -- PLUS my parents are his only godparents! more in the baptism post) ... I allow my sister to hurt me and hurt my feelings by treating me as though I did something wrong. In this particular instance the "hold" (or "influence"?) that she is under is keeping her parents and her only sister from Baby K. I know she loves us, and I know we are good influences for her and the baby. (His father, on the other hand, keeps walking out of court-ordered rehab after he was released from jail, and is not always around to help my sister with their less-than-three-months-old baby boy which FRUSTRATES ME). Photo below shows how long my hair was last month! I just had about four inches trimmed off, am considering returning to a chin-length bob or at least getting a shoulder-length cut (not sure yet).
|Tia J with Baby K trying on his first Halloween bib!|
The first photo of Baby K, his mom, and myself (March 4, 2013)
|C's first ever ultrasound! (Standing with my sister as she|
holds her very first child's photo on March 4, 2013)
|Barely visible writing says "Baby's First Christmas"!|