Baby Me! [100th post]

For my 100th blog post I decided to give you Baby Me! This photo has a background story that I unfortunately do not share, but I am thankful for so much and so blessed that I had to share this particular one. Thanks to everyone who reads this, who knows me, who supports me, also everyone who drops by just because -- I thank and welcome each and every one of you

As a child...

"As a child we always wanted to grow up but now we realize that broken toys and lost pencils were much better than broken hearts and lost friends..."

So very thankful for my parents -- looking at my life I do not know what I would do without them.  I am truly blessed and so very lucky... I know I can never repay them for being there, everything they have done for me. The image/quote above I have had on the computer for a while.  Some days it helps me feel better and other days it makes me feel worse. If I look back in general I appreciate so much -- but if I look too closely at the past decade without stopping to catch myself I end up playing the "What If" game.  That almost NEVER works well. Having support (people, certain books, "comfort" food, etc) helps and I realized this past week that I have at least paused in the downward spiral I have been on.  Having perhaps my second worst health spiral ever really has been messing with me for the past few months.  I realized that I am finally feeling stable again -- I am at a much better place than I was, and although I still have another few weeks of doctors visits to get through, I can say that things will be alright. As of now I still feel there are things I will never get to do/have, but I am in a better place and that is great.  Need to write to my "France family" and do laundry this weekend... It was so nice to have a break from the warm weather and enjoy some clouds and rain!

10.11.12

Four photos of sunsets taken during some of my walks the past two weeks:

The colors blend so effortlessly -- the sky reminds me of a watercolor

 
Am glad the clouds came out so well in this photo

Got this one in at the end of one walk but was too tired to stay outside and see how the sky kept changing, instead I grabbed more water and sat down!

***********

One of my oldest friends sent me an email yesterday that made me smile and made me sad at the same time -- she is back in France with her family, and my godson and his twin sister apparently miss me and have asked for me by name! (Other family/favorite things from CA also, but I particularly loved and missed the four of them when I read about them asking about me... I am so blessed to have my parents, grandparents, family and friends -- I lost so many when my health turned my life down a different path but being online has brought some friends back into my life yet so many live far away now and there are just some days I feel an absolute need to have my godson/his sister/other young kids give me little kid hugs. Wrapped up in their games and able to see the world through the eyes of a child, even for a few minutes, helps so much. Walking more is hopefully helping "fix" the various health things I have had recently, but my emotional health got such a "high" being able to spend days at a time with them! Miss working with infants/toddlers too...)